it's fitting to start my first posting on the very thing that has made some (or many) of us realise that we're gay. we fell in love with our best friends and we didn't even know it. we thought it was some deep connection, and maybe it was, but these connections got all mixed up with attraction and other 'interesting' thoughts.
so i met a girl online. we became the best of buddies. then i started to wonder when it was that we made a decision that this was only all about friendship. i got all confused. i told her i was attracted to her. holy moly and a few days of processing later, we agreed it's pure friendship - and a great one at that. so ouch. but yes, i agree. although i'd much rather marry her. i know friendship with her is what i really need right now and vice versa.
it takes a lot to focus the emotions away from attraction to platonic thoughts. but when you finally get to a place where it no longer stings as much as it used to, then you know you are slowly moving on.
that's what i call progress.
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